Good Bye Junior Year (I'll miss you)

Hello,

I don't know how many people actually read this blog but everyone who is I thank all of you for touching my life this past 10'-11' academic year and making it one of the best years yet.  Every single person I've met, befriended, created a bond with or even drifted away from has made an impact on me this year and helped me become a better person.
Many years ago when i was just a preteen I was not a happy person, I would even venture to say a miserable person.  I never smiled and wanted to talk or interact with people.  I've noticed, however, that as the years have come and gone each one has been better than the one preceding it.  I have become happier, more confident and all around a person I can be more proud of.
Stony Brook has been a big part of my life and my happiness these last three years and I couldn't imagine being anywhere else (sure It has it's flaws but so does anything).  Just last summer I couldn't believe my awesome sophomore was coming to an end and I was convinced that there was no way Junior year would top it but somehow it may have just done that.
This year I have traveled, been a leader, been a friend, been helped, helped others, found a tentative career path, created life-long bonds, jumped at opportunities, had people jab at my heart, laughed, cried, had small panic attacks, had laughing fits, been so busy I don't know how I managed and most of all found myself smiling more this year then I ever have in the past.
If I could hold onto this academic year an make it last just a few weeks longer I would but I know this isn't possible.  I will always hold onto all the memories I have made this year and smile at each one, good or bad.  I now look forward to the future and wonder if thing could get even better.
Good Bye Junior year, lets see what you got Senior year!!!

Love <3,
Chloe

P.S. I know i've strayed from this 30 day challenge >.< I'll get back to it i promise!!!

"Day" 10- my i pod on suffle

here are the first 10 songs that come up on my i pod

The Beatles"She Loves you"
FloRida ft. T-Pain- "Low" (I was unaware this song was on my ipod lol)
U2- "Beautiful Day
Red Hot Chili Peppers- "Californication"
The Producers sound track- "I Wanna Be A Producer"
The Fray- "Little House"
John Mayer- "Waiting On The World To Change"
Maroon 5- "If I Never See Your Face Again"
The Fray- "Heaven Forbid"
Plain White T's- "What More Do You Want?"

I would Have to say this list pretty well represents what is on my ipod! yay procrastinating studying for finals!!

how important I think my education is:

Well I am currently in school to help myself achieve the goals I have set out.  But mostly I go to school to avoid sounding like this:

What I ate today :)

• I had Sun Chips for breakfast because i was lazy
• I had a sbu union salad with tomatoes, chicken, cheese and such (and a water)
• then i had one reeses cup
• for dinner i had a grilled chicken sandwich and a baked potato (and another water)
• lastly as a study snack I had some cheese-its!

5 pet peeves

ok, so Im obviously really bad at keeping up with this sooo yea I'll just do this at my own pace, okay? good :)
my Pet Peeves:
1. When someone cracks their whole body - Not just their knuckles once or twice but when someone cracks their necks, backs, toes and everything in between

2.When a food establishment makes my food wring in some way- I don't know why but my food must be perfect

3. Chewing really loudly- especially if you are in a quiet eating area

4.Giving away part of a movie- if im watching a film, let me watch it! dont give anything away!

5. Doing group projects in class- there is always one or two people doing more work than the others no matter how it is divided

Ps- RIP pet Peeve.  Peeve was a fish that belonged to Saida and I about a year ago, we miss you!

My views on mainstream music:

Two blog posts in a day?? Its crazy right?
I would first like to say I like a lot of mainstream music.  I feel that many people do as well even if they do not admit to it.  Sure no one is going to like every song on the radio but the whole point of mainstream music is to get stuck in you head and have you singing.  I feel that a lot of the musicians on the radio now do have talent and some are just lucky enough to be signed by a music label.  Some truly love music and performing while others are just in it for the money and it is up to the consumer to make the decision for him or herself as to who to listen to.  On that note I am sooooooooooooooooo excited that Bruno Mars is coming to stony brook this friday!  So enjoy some mainstream music that has been stuck in my head for days:

Things I want to say to an ex...

oh before I start this post I realize that blog has been kinda abandoned recently but I have been really busy ( not a good excuse I know)


Anyways, "things you would say to an ex".  I put a lot of thought into this post and how I want to answer it.  First i would like to say the whole romantic relationship department in my life is something I neglect.  For one reason or another it just happens to not be very high on my priority list and usually gets forgotten about.  So being that there aren't too many "ex's" there is not too much to express. That said, I have thought of something I would like to say to an ex and here it goes:


At first I wasn't sure if I liked you but I was curious so things developed.  What we had was great.  To this day I am unsure of my feelings for you but I do know that some of your words did hurt.  Did I really have value to you? Why would you tell me about another person you felt so strongly about and then dismiss "us"?  I know I can be unavailable at times but our experience together meant something, I hope you (at least some of the time) felt the same way.  

Bullet my whole day

• wokeup at 6:20 and studied for my test
• Got dressed, washed up, did my hair and makeup
• 8:05 left my room to go to the hsc for class (and met Tati on the way so she drove me!)
• 8:30am-6:15pm Breakfast, class, lunch, test, coffee at ihop, class
• 6:30pm dinner with Saida and Jay
• 7:20pm Starbucks!
• 8:00 pm dance performance with Saida
• I soon came back to my room and found TONS OF ANTS
• DECLARED AN ANT WAR!!!
• kicked ant butt :)
• and now I am hanging with Saida and Rebecca for the night <3

A book I love

I really dont read for fun all that much, when ever I try to I always think I should be reading for a class.  Well anyway one of the books I have really enjoyed that I read in high school was 1984

Something I feel strongly about

I know that this is very hippy of me but I tend to be very antiwar

the path to my heart

I've decided to start the 30 day challenge sooner rather than later so here it goes:

5 WAYS TO MY HEART:

1. chocolate- yea I know its typical for a girl to love chocolate but.. I really do!

2. a random act of kindness- I don't have high expectations for receiving surprises so a nice one every now and then would be appreciated :)

3. Kittens and fluffy animals- again very girly but how can you say no to this face?:

4. vacations to a beautiful beach- hey, I can dream right?

5. a good hug 

Well that is all for now, #1 do done <3

well hello again :)

Hello again blog,
I have missed writing on here but got a little bid discouraged by a few comments.  I'm over it now however, I've decided to gain the attitude if you don't like my blog you don't have to read it!
Anyway, my life has been pretty crazy recently I'm preparing for many things that are occurring both over this summer and the next academic year.  Although its been a little stressful I was able to de-stress a little bit last over spring break! It was nice being home and then visiting the wonderful Elizabeth and friends in NewPaltz.
So now I feel like I'm going to start rambling so I have chosen to take on the 30 day challenge (given to me by my friend Tatiana) to get back into the swing of bloging! and here it is:

(Tati was challenged to do this in picture format, we'll see how I do it!)

NRHH :)

"The National Residence Hall Honorary is the only nationwide organization that exclusively recognizes leaders in the residence halls; it is also considered the recognition branch of the National Association of College and University Residence Halls (NACURH), Inc." 

Oh Marty! <3

Thankyou everyone for all the support, I'm am very proud to be the future president of such an awesome organization!

mood

Today in class we spoke about internalizing other people's moods.  It is easy to do, if someone is very happy, very upset or very angry it can seem contagious.  My classmates and I noticed it today at lunch when the man behind the grill station had a very sour attitude, everyone who ordered there almost instantly "caught" this mood.  The only trouble is that this is just a stranger, think about people we care about.  This I also encountered today.  I don't know why this person was acting differently but after our exchange I came away with a different mood.

Being optimistic and filling your life with happy people can make all the difference.  Though it is true no one is happy all the time.  It can be hard to not internalize what another person is feeling but understanding can help.  Understanding where a person is coming from brings clarity.

Well anyway I'm done trying to analyze people, I'll leave that for when I become a true social worker :)

p.s. On a different note I would like to congratulate a lot of people for awesome feats that have been happening recently! First I would like to send a congrats to all of those students in my social work major who have found their awesome internships for next year (we are one step closer to obtaining our goals!), congrats to everyone who has been chosen to be an RA and congrats to those who got RHA executive board positions today! I love the accomplishment!

the little things in life

I dare you to watch this video and not smile:

I wish simple things in life like ripping paper made me this happy.  I think we can all learn a thing or two from this baby, like life is taken way too seriously.  If we all took the time to laugh at a little bit of ripped paper here and there the world would be a much happier place.  I know next time I'm upset or stressing about something I will think of this video!


ps. another great thing about this video is the description "8-month-old boy laughing hysterically while at-home daddy rips up a job rejection letter. It was so much fun that he moved on to credit card solicitations."


have a great day everyone! <3 

Questions

Questions, we've all got them.  I have recently, more than ever, had the desire to ask everyone questions just of of curiosity.  For example if I pass someone that looks extra upset I am very curious why.  Or another example would be when I'm eating lunch in the hospital cafeteria (my classes are in the adjoining building) I see some doctors or medical students in white jackets eating by themselves (some are pretty cute too :P ).  I would love to walk up to them and ask why they wanted to be a doctor? How long did it take to get to where you are? what is an average day like working in a hospital?

And then there are questions I always want to ask my acquaintances and friends.  Things like: How are you really feeling today? What are your dreams? Do you feel you will accomplish them? what did you mean by that comment the other day? what's going on in your head? Are you a boxers or briefs guy? do you believe in soul mates? what were you like as a kid? who was your idol? who is your role model now? how do you see yourself? how do you see me? what are your fears? what do you regret? what do you like most about yourself? .....

Of course I don't always feel this inquisitive.  In fact sometimes I'd rather just be left alone.  There are those times, however, when you "peoplewatch" and wonder what truly is someone's story.  To be fair, if you ever feel this way and would like to ask me a question here is my form spring:

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http://formspring.me/cloball

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Last time I used it it seemed kind of dumb but I'm willing to try it again. These thoughts seem to be extra random so I hope you like :)

Till' next time <3

anxiety and stress

Tension is who you think you should be.  Relaxation is who you are.  

~Chinese Proverb

A snap shot of a relaxing summer moment

what's in a name?

Chloe is not an abnormal name, it is the number 9 most popular female baby names in the United States and there is even a clothing brand named Chloe. But, between the nicknames I have and the many incorrect ways to spell and say my name I feel like it can be surprising when someone actually calls me Chloe.

When I was born My grandmother called me Cleo for the first two years of my life.  This of course is followed by many teachers pronouncing my name as CH-lo.  The occasional teacher would just give up and call me by my last name.  The worst pronunciation I've heard was Cho-lo.  But pronunciation is one thing spelling is something entirely different.  I have my name spelled Chole possibly more times than it is spelled correctly.  So that led to many of my friends calling me Cho-lay ( you know who you are :P)

But all I have spoken about so far has been my real name I also have more nicknames than I can count.  As a kid my Dad called me cupcake and now my family calls me "cooie".  In high school a friend couldn't pronounce my name and proceeded to call me cloud.  Now in college my name has taken on so many transformations.  It was of course first Chloe, then Hoe-y (this was a bad joke btw), then one day it was snowing so it turned into snowy, then snowball.  Now sometimes its just ball, sometimes Cloball, sometimes bball, sometimes beebs.  I would like to take my dear friends Saida and Jay for most of those nicknames.

Most recently professor for my LDR 410 class let me know that clo means toilet (or bathroom I can't remember) in german so now my blog can be called the toiletball effect
I really do like the name Chloe don't get me wrong, but it can be a lot more trouble than people expect!

P.s. This blog post is much more random and longer than I expected
p.p.s should I actually swich to tumblr?

Illness has taken its toll

Bleh, I've been sick for a few days now and it stinks.  As a campus tour guide I had to give 2 tours today and I felt like I was going to pass out from the start.  When I got to the administration building to start my tours I told the receptionist (that has always reminded me of my grandmother) that I was feeling very sick.  She then proceeded to have me step away and lysol the spot I was standing in as well as the whole desk in front of her.  It great to feel like you are a biohazard!


Ugh, we've all been there, sick not wanting to get out of bed but pushing yourself anyway just because of your "responsibilities". I remember when I used to get excited to be sick because that meant I got to miss school and have mom take care of me all day.  The extra TV time and sleep was fantastic.  Too bad I have to be an "adult" now and only miss work or class if I am truly bed ridden.  


if only germs were this cute:
then maybe I wouldn't mind being sick :P

(taken from http://browse.deviantart.com/?qh=&section=&q=germs#/dja0qt)

P.S. so this is my attempt at a blog post, how am I doing so far? :)

Blogging?

Hi everyone (if people are actually reading),
What is a blog? hmmm I'm not sure but I'm going to take a crack at making one anyway.  I always used to think of it as an boring online diary but my friend Panthea has inspired me with her awesome blog "I happen to think I'm Hilarious" to attempt and achieve such awesomeness as well.  I expect this blog to be random, amusing and well random.  On that note here is a picture of my cat hugging a shoe:

Well I hope to blog again very soon <3